stop hoping.....sigh....

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA....

'smoga ape yg dikorbnkn taon ni memberi manfaat kpd diri kite...'

AMIN...

interesting info to share...

arini mse tgh sedap2 surf youtube ni tgk video2 yg menarik...

tetibe trbukak video 2 org mamat nih...

ok...at first aku rse diorg sgtla bodo n sengal...

aku pn heran apsalla rmai btol viewer diorg nih...

tp bile da tgk satu2 video dieorg nih jdk cm mint sgt...

coz asyik senyum jer....

then aku tgk btol2 mke slah sorg mamat ni...nme die anas tahir n i realize sumtyn...

OMG, he faizal tahir's brother....

ape yg sgt wt aku kagum gler kt mamat ni ialah...if korg tgk die scare luarn memg nmpk sengal cm bdk x de mse dpn...tp rpenyer graduates luar ngre beb...

x pe aku bg korg tgk sket video die n link yg bole tgk gmba2 die...

http://anastahir.fotopages.com/?&page=0

we are pretender....

I don’t know why I’m writing right now but I just feel like wanted to …. Lately, There are tones of things that playing inside my mind until it drives me crazy.. U knows what… I’ve try so hard to be a kind person…. To be a tough person or even a person that can be dependable to…but somehow…no matter how hard we try to be ourselves….we just could not make it…. Coz people that live in this world will only see what the best interest that a person can gives them…. that means, even though u are a good person with a positive attitudes, does not mean u can be a person that can be count on to…

I’ve gone through a lot of experience since my 20 years of living… even though it’s not a very long time but I’ve learned a lot… today, there are no such things that we called ‘memories’ …it meant nothing to nobody coz people tend to change according to situations… don’t tell me that I’m wrong… it is fact that there must be at least once in our lives that we will be a pretender rather than being our own self…. I myself have gone through that…. Even though it is painful, but it is more meaningful………

Nowadays, it is hard to find best friends rather that boyfriends……it is because people are more manipulative than we thought they were..sharing is not caring anymore…. besides, I guess technically saying the words ‘love’ will be more easier rather than meant it…hehe… however, now I’ve learned how to judge people relatively from being such a stereotyping person…it is different because now I don’t judge book by its cover….

Whatever it is……I just know something….we are only the actors and actresses in this opera world created by Allah..Meaning that, we must love our self before we love others and respect our self before we respect others…… I love to be myself, but somehow being a pretender will be simpler if that what people want me to…

p/s : i've been so addicted to watch a movie series called 'GREEK'... love Cappie so damn much...=p

memoirs....

tetibe teringt 1 mse dulu aku penh in love with someone yg couple dgn a person yg related to me...

but that guy pn at the same tyme in love gk dgn aku...

maybe coz kitorg always get around 2gether n die pn jrg jumpe dgn gf die...

but bile diorg jumpe, aku cm x bole nk wt mke fake dpn diorg...

haha...memg klaka...tp aku akn ingt smpi bile2...

coz dat guy penh mnjdk the bestfren i've ever had n a person that i'm in love with too...

p/s : 2 la org slalu ckp klu kiter ade bestfren lelaki, memg susah utk kiter x jtoh cinte dgn die...=p

senaman ringan 7 minit...tryla....=)

senaman ringan ini..ikut la arahan ni betul2...

Di jamin Memutihkan Muka..

sebagai intro dan warming up..

sapukan gel rambut yg Ori..

pade mata 7 kali..

buaT liquId seBanyak 5 kali

untuk melegakan bahu dan leher..

gerak kekanan kemudian ke kiri..

gerak ke kiri kemudian ke kanan

ikut je ler... jangan terpusing kepala udah la..

Langkah seterusnya..

Ambil sebuah batu bata dan hentakknnya!!

di bahagian ...kulit hitam

atau berjerawat...

dah tu buat gerakan tangan dan badan...

buat macam happy aje..

kemudian goyang2 kaki dan badan sikit...

buat macam takde masaalah...

Kemudian buat SS (syok sendiri)

Di dpn mEmber anda..

Dlm masa seminggu...

Kulit anda akan menjadi Putih berseri...

p/s : dijamin berkesan...=p

NADZIRAH 6 taon akn dtg...

last nyte...

aku mimpi aku msok tyme machine...

pastu trmsok kt dunia aku 6 taon yg akn dtg....hehe...

da ade ank sorg....

pastu nek LANCER...hehe

pergh...berangan jer kejer...

best..

2 day i met my old friend that i didn't see for a long time...

and we've talk a lot...

we use to be a very good friend once,

but 'someone' broke it up.....

n of course i hated him till today..

however, she's been trying so hard till today to be my friend back...

n today i realize that this is a real friendship where she didn't give up to ask for forgiveness

n our friendship..

hopefully we can be like before...

i never forget her before, now n even after...

thanks 4 your sincerity 2 be my friend...

p/s : best klu ade shbt yg kwn dgn kiter krn kiter n bkn krn org len... n best ade shbt yg tau bezakan antre 'bestfriend' dgn 'boyfriend'....klu yg x tau tu...no wonderla smpai skg x de kwn yg rpt dgn ko....at the end berkepitla dgn bf ko 24 jam...em...

3 words, 8 letters n i'm urs....

Give me more loving than I’ve ever had

Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad

Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad

Barely getting mad

I’m so glad I found you

I love being around you

Give me more loving from the very start

Piece me back together when I fall apart

Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad

You’re the best that I’ve had

And I’m so glad I found you

I love being around you

You make it easy

Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4

There’s only one thing

To Do

Three words

For you

I love you

There’s only one way to say

Those three words

That’s what I’ll do

I love you

p/s : thnks 4 every things...

i love CHASE CRAWFORD very much...!!

feel like wanna share this video with all of you especially

GG followers...

have a nice watch...

I WONDER...

'when people so jealous with your happy life,

they tend to do anything to destroy the happiness'

'when people are having difficulties in their unhappy life,

their mission are to put others into their situation too'

'but for me, i don't have any worries because

i have those people that love me around me

my close friends(especially house mates ),

my family and the one and only bf...'

'so for those 'people' that do not know

how to respect my dignity,

feel free to stay away from my life

because i don't need those kind of people anymore'

p/s : my life is happy enough even studies make me stress, so i don't need other

'BERUK-BERUK' to enter my life. i like this way better.

one more thing...FYI MY LIFE IS EVERYTHING...haha....

Raya wit classmates...

pening...

'kiter nk org len pkir psl kiter walhal kiter sndiri x penh pkir psl org len'

'kiter nk org len phm psl kiter tp kiter x cbe memahami org len'

'kiter rse kiter da ckop bgos utk wt sgalenya tp sbnrnye kiter perlukan bntuan org len'

'kiter rse kiter da ckop 'senang' tnpe mengambil kire kesenangan org len'

p/s : muhasabah diri...idop ini pnoh dgn lakonan...

The ABC of friendship

(A)ccepts You As You Are

(B)elieves In "you"

(C)alls You Just To Say "HI"

(D)oesn't Give Up On You

(E)nvisions The Whole Of You (Even The Unfinished Parts)

(F)orgives Your Mistakes

(G)ives Unconditionally

(H)elps You

(I)nvites You Over

(J)ust "Be" With You

(K)eeps You Close At Heart

(L)oves You For Who You Are

(M)akes A Difference In Your Life (Never Judges

(O)ffers Support

(P)icks You Up

(Q)uiets Your Fears

(R)aises Your Spirits

(S)ays Nice Things About You

(T)ells You The Truth When You Need To Hear It

(U)nderstands You

(V)alues You

(W)alks Beside You

(X)-Plain Things You Don't Understand

(Y)ells When You Won't Listen And

(Z)aps You Back To Reality

best sgt...i like it..

Raya Updates...

bengang

bkn nk nyanyi lagu bengang or ape..
juz aku tgh bengang gler coz da 2 jam dok kat cc pn bkn men sush nk wt asignment nih..
nasebla si asrul ni ha ade kt sblh dok temn aku..
klu x dok bertungau gk ar nk crk bhn2 ni ha...
stress btol aku nk crk bhn tntg consequences of stress...
mencik..!!!.....

p/s : bkn men khusyuk si asrul men game smpi x ingt dunia....

teruja..

sejak akhir2 ni bnyk hint2 yg dtnjokkn parent aku yg die da bole trima abg sket2...

seyes x tipu n aku sgt teruja dgn perkembngn trbaru diorg...

alhamdulillah berkat kesbrn abg aku amik ati parent aku akhirnye diorg da mule bole menerima abg sbg bf aku..

antre cnth2 ayt yg aku rse diorg da bole trima...

1. mse dlm perjlnn balik dr kg...

ayah : abg ingt nnt bile ayam serama tu da bertlor nk bg kt mak bpk kwn nadzirahla..

mak : bgos gk tu...sal pn trpkir cmtu gk..

2. mse tgh lpk2 wat kuih dgn mak..

mak : mak kwn kakak x wat kuih...

aku : x...ank2 die slalu belikan da belikan kuih rye utk diorg..

mak : ow...mak ingt taon nih nk tempah bj rye kt diela...bole ke?..

aku : bole sgt2...(smbil trsengih2...)..

3. mse tgh bork2 dgn family psl bisnes.

ayah : nnt ayh nk sroh kwn kakak tu msok bisnes ni n ajk kwn die rmai2...

mak die pn ayah nk sroh msok gk...ayah tgk mak die tu memg bgos bab2 bisnes nih..

aku : ( blur2...)

n bnyk lgla sign2 yg diorg tnjokkn...memg rse bersyukor sgt...tp wlauapepn aku x de la gtl st nk kawen sgt coz aku ade cite2 n impian trsendiri yg aku kna cpai dulu....abg aku pn sme...

insyaallah klu ade jdoh x kn kemane....amin...

After Marriage..

1. Women are unpredictable. Before marriage, she expects a man, after marriage she suspects him, and after death she respects him.

2.There was this guy who told his woman that he loved her so much that he would go thru hell for her. They got married - and now he is going thru hell.

3.A man inserted an 'ad' in the classifieds : " Wife wanted". Next day, he received a hundred letters. They all said the same thing "You can have mine."

4. When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing: either the car is new or the wife.

5. It's easy to tell if a man is married or not. Just watch him drive a car with a woman sitting beside him. If both his hands are on the wheel, you can be sure he is married.

6. A man received a letter from some kidnappers. The letter said, "If you don't promise to send us $100,000, we promise you we will kidnap your wife." The poor man wrote back, " I am afraid I can't keep my promise but I hope you will keep yours."

7. "What's the matter, you look depressed." "I'm having trouble with my wife." "What happened?" "She said she wasn't going to speak to me for 30 days." But that ought to make you happy." "It did, but today is the last day."

semalam di rumah ibu mertuaku..

mlm td abg bwk aku balik kkb coz ade buke pose beramai2...

sume adek bradik abg ade kecuali angah je...

so ptg smlm aku pn tlgla mak abg masak utk b'buke...

nk d'jdk'n citer, abg bole plak sroh aku mskkn bihun goreng utk diorg mkn tyme buke...

coz slalunye diorg akn mkn ringn2 dulu,pas solt bru mkn nsk b'lauk...

punyela cuak aku...tp aku still bajet cool cm ade penglmn msk...(pdhl mak abg memg da tau aku x pndai msk)...=p

sbnrnye aku still ingt lg cmne nk msk bihun goreng, tp utk nk pastikn ape yg aku ingt tu x slh, aku pn tnyela mak aku..hehe...nsb btol....pastu aku pn msk...

alhamdulillah bihun tu mnjdk...n diorg mkn smpi abis...hehe...so kire lpsla ujian prtme di umah mertua...haha...klaka btol...

mlm tu plak kitorg 1 family wat kuih chikedis...hehe...aku pn x tau npe nme die pelik cmtu...

tp nme je chikedis, nk wat die punyela sush...smpi skt2 pinggang aku...

p/s : apepn mlm td memg trase cm aku menyambut pose n rye di uma mertua...haha...klaka2...

mlm 27 likur..

last 3 night b4 Raya...

it should be the 3 best nyte coz we'll going 2 the end of Ramadhan...

some people like it coz they don't have 2 suffer themselves anymore from fasting but some don't...

For me, i'll be kinda sad coz Ramadhan diz year was the best Ramadhan that i've ever had...

thnks 2 Allah for giving me this opportunity..

i learn a lot...

i learn how to be an obedient daughter from my hard experience along Ramadhan...

i learn how to cook...thanks 2 my housemates and my mom for teaching me...

i learn how to be a good listener n a good girlfriend...

i feel so relieve coz my life is getting better...

however i have 2 realize 1 thing....no one in diz world that don't have problem at all...

so i have to prepare myself from whatever things that i might face 1 day....

seriously hope 4 the blessing of Allah...

p/s : SELAMAT HARI RAYA N MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN,

kpd sume kwn2 yg mengenali diri in...

berkat ramadhan..

my life is getting better from tyme to tyme...

syukor alhamdulillah...

lega...

rse lega coz aku da bole lpekn mcm2 prkre x penting yg penh ade dlm pale otk aku ni..

rse lega coz aku x perlu nk pkir prkre2 yg x de kaitan dgn aku...

rse lega coz aku hnye perlu pkir psl kehidupn aku je...

rse teramat lega wlaupn aku tgh bz gler dgn mcm2 dugaan aku as plajr, ank n hamba allah kt ke bumi ni...alhamdulillah....

kenangan sntiase trcipta..

memori sntiase diingati...

namun kehidupn tetap harus ditroskn...

cantek banget awek2 nih...

p/s: tp yg paling comel of coursela yg tgh dok tuh..hehe

i learn 1 important lesson 2day...

'jgn biarkn org tlg ko klu 1 ari nnt die

ungkit kebaikn yg die wt'

p/s : x sgke slameni kebaikn yg da dibuat x ikhlas...klu aku tau sumph aku x mintk...sdey rsenya...sdey yg teramat sgt....so skg komfem aku akn nmpk brok kt pndgn mate org len... nasib2...aku klu mrh cmne pn bertapis...coz aku tau org len pn ade hati n prasaan cm aku...erm..

adkh slh aku?

x dpt nk bhgiakn sume org - adkh slh aku ?

x dpt nk bhgiakn diri sndiri - adkh slh aku ?

x dpt phmkn org tntg keadaan sbnr aku - adkh slh aku ?

x dpt brfikir pnjg - adkh slh aku ?

x dpt luangkn mse - adkh slh aku ?

x dpt luahkn sgalenya - adkh slh aku ?

x penh melupakan kau adkh ianya jgk slh aku?...

p/s : konfius...aku ade wt slh ke atau sume ni hnye slh phm?...coz aku rse aku x wt ape2...tp mungkin aku lpe tergkn dgn lbey jelas...so nmpk cm akula pesalah yg bsr...pelupe diri...bajet n mcm2 lg...tp x pela....aku rse akula yg slh....aku sedia dimarahi...diumpt...dikeji n bermcm2 lg....

thnks.... tp ko tau ke ape yg aku alami?...jgn dok asyik dgr hasutan org...nk tau tnye aku sndiri...klu x, smpi mati pn cmni jela...prkre yg sme brulang2 brlaku...erm...

thnks b..

it was an amazing nyte with u....

i feel so relieved n comfort...

thnks for calming me down...

p/s : if i ever thought of letting u go, it will be the biggest mistake in my life ever....

rezeki..

Manusia sering bimbang mengenai rezekinya apakah ada atau tidak cukup?

Tetapi apakah itu rezeki?

Adakah harta atau wang ringgit itu rezeki?

Menurut Islam, Allah S.W.T. berkehendakkan kita supaya bercakap benar dan jangan melakukan yang batil. Buatlah apa yang diredai Allah dan ketahuilah bahawa rezeki kita berada di tanganNya. Tidak seorang pun yang boleh mengambil atau menyekat rezeki kita. Allah telah menerangkan kepada kita bahawa Ia mengurniakan Qarun dengan harta yang banyak. Namun Qarun tidak pernah puas kerana angkuh.

"Sesungguhnya aku hanya diberi harta itu, kerana ilmu yang ada padaku.' Dan apakah ia tidak mengetahui bahawasanya Allah sungguh telah membinasakan umat-umat sebelumnya yang lebih kuat daripadanya, dan lebih banyak mengumpulkan harta? (Surah Al-Qasas: 78)

Sesungguhnya rezeki itu tidak berperanan pada harta, darjat, keturunan atau pangkat saja, malah ia memainkan peranan mendapatkan keredaan Allah dari segi percakapan dan amalan. Di sinilah kita dapat memahami maksud firman Allah yang berikut, yang bermaksud:
Dan jadilah orang-orang (yang sebelumnya) itu mencita-citakan kedudukan Qarun itu berkata: Aduhai, benarlah Allah telah melapangkan rezeki bagi sesiapa yang Dia kehendaki dari hamba-hambaNya dan menyempitkannya. Kalau Allah tidak melimpahkan kurniaNya atas kita, benar-benar Dia telah membenamkan kita (pula). Aduhai, benarlah! Tidak beruntung orang-orang yang mengingkari (nikmat Allah). (Surah Al-Qasas: 82)

p/s : sbrla abg...klu ade rezki insyaallah x kemane...asalkn abg pastikan yg rezki yg abg dpt tu dr sumber yg halal spye abg dpt kekal lme dgn rezki tu...klu abg dpt dr sumber haram,srupe mcm abg tipu diri abg sndiri...x pe org sntiase doakn kejayaan abg dlm idop...amin...

now...

'trase sedia memaafkan n dimaafkan....'

p/s : jgn rse diri ko tu BAGOS sgt n BAEK sgt dow...x elok...aku cdg bek cermin diri dulu.. jgn ati pn sme ITAM gk dow...

Buzy......!!!!!!

phew...

agk bz gk..

smnjk 2 menjk da msok degree ni, pnt btol woo....

lg pnt brgnde2 dr mse tyme dip dulu...

due date assignment2 semakin dkt...

kengkdg tu 1 ari smpi 2-3 keje skali kna anta...

kamikan robot....haha...

memg mengiler...

lemah lutut...

m'gigil bdn...

skt otk..

brgegar jntong..

haha..cm b'poemlak...

tp memg ku bz......

phew......

merdeka nyte....

p/s : best coz kuar dgn mbr2 rpt aku mse skola teknik n especially dgn abg aku..luv him..

this is me..

I've always been the kind of girl

That hid my face

So afraid to tell the world

What I've got to say

But I have this dream

Right inside of me

I'm gonna let it show

It's time to let you know

to let you know

This is real

This is me

I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now

Gonna let light shine on me

Now I've found who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I wanna be

This is me

Do you know what it's like

To feel so in the dark

To dream about a life

Where you're the shining star

Even though it seems

Like it's too far away

I've got to believe in myself

It's the only way

This is real

This is me

I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now

Gonna let light shine on me

Now I've found who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I wanna be

This is me

patah hati....='(

Hidup adakah artinya???

Aku hanya bisa diam..

saat kusadari aku kesepian..

Hanya alam yang menemani..

ku berbicara pada hujan..

Ku bersandar pada pepohonan..

mungkin aku hanya sendirian..

Tak ada malaikat dihatiku..

Mereka sudah pergi jauh..

Jauh dari hidupku..

Semua hanya dunia palsu..

Mengapa??

Mengapa Langit tak mendengar??

saat aku hanya bisa terdiam kesepian..

mengapa tak kau tolong aku yang menderita??

Percuma aku bertanya..

karena kau tak akan menjawab..

Hidup dan matiku juga kau tak pedulikan..

Buat apa aku ada..

Merdekakah aku?...

haha....pelik sket entry kali ni...

em....still x tau cmne nk citer in appropriate manner....

td aku dpt msg dr mak aku...

tnye bile aku nk byr balik duit ayh aku yg aku gne wt byr yurn pengajian aku...

haha...tetibe time tu gk air mate aku jatuh x henti2...

bile aku kenang balik kish idop aku...

blnje tetap aku tiap2 bln RM300 - sewa uma (rm150)

- wmax (rm50)

- minyk keta ( rm40)

- api air, photostat assignment, brg2 dapur ( rm 60)

blnje mkn minum aku?...

aku x kuar jenjln ke release tensyen dgn kengkwn aku?

aku x shopping ke?...

bj rye,ksot rye,beg rye n sbgainye?....

satu apepn aku x de....

as a parent,

diorg juz bg aku rm50 tiap2 minggu n kengkdg x bg lgsg pn...

ok, lets assume klu diorg bg aku tiap minggu rm50...

total 200....blnje tetp rm300( x trmsok blnje utk diri aku)...

so, 200<300...

sbnrynye aku x kish pn klu diorg x bg aku 1 sen pn duit blnje coz skg ni abg aku da tanggong aku...tanggong aku 100%....spatotnya aku kawen je dgn laki aku skg ni..lg bgos....aku x kish pn klu aku x dpt ape yg aku nk coz aku da bese da cmni...mungkin diorg sush nk sare idop diorg... x pe aku x kish..eventhough ank pak rahim cume ade 2 ketul je...x pe aku x kisah....

yg aku kish n sedey n kesalkn sgt2, tggungjwb diorg as mak bpk....

mak aku....ade penah slalu msg2 n tanye khabar aku?...tnye plajrn aku cmne?...tnye ape yg aku da wat n ape yg da trjdk kt idop aku...ape yg die wt juz msg aku bile aku da lme sgt x balik.... memg aku sje je x nk balik uma slalu coz x de beza pn n aku pn da twr ati....

ayah aku?...haram x penah lgsg msg atau kol aku.....n memg x penh tau lgsg klu ank die skt nk mampos kat sini atau kna culik or rogol pn die x tau....

tp yg paling aku sgt sesalkn ialah diorg mghrpkn aku brjaya dlm plajrn dgn ape yg diorg bg.... diorg cm mghrpkn blsn ats sgale yg diorg da penh bg kt aku slameni..... ikutkn aku memg da twr ati sgt2 nk blaja klu cmni...tp abg aku x ptos2 nshtkn aku coz die tau aku ade impian n cita2 yg da lme aku idamkn.....

dulu aku blaja utk nk banggekn diorg....tp skg x lg, aku blaja utk diri aku sndiri....n jgn slhkn aku klu aku da brjaya sok aku cume bls budi dgn wang ringgit n bkn kaseh syg...!!!!.....

p/s : kejam ke ape yg aku da lakukan?...aku x mghrpkn apepn slain kaseh syg dr mak n ayh... ='(

xsbr...

rndu MUHD ASRUL sgt2... ='(

i'm sorry..

aku ade 1 mslh bsr....
aku mempunyai mlot yg x berinsurans....
aku x sdr ape aku ckp...
mksod len, klu aku x sdr, aku x mksodknnye lgsg atau x trlints lgsg
dlm pale otk aku...
sbb klu aku nk sound org, slalunye aku pkir dulu n aku sound direct je..
tp kengkwn aku ckp diorg slalu trse dgn aku...
mungkin aku da lfzkn scre x sengaje n aku x mksodkn lgsg pn..
aku pn 1, bolelak aku lpe yg aku idop dgn org yg brhati n prasaan...
jdk, scre ikhlasnye aku nk mintk maaf kt sume org yg mungkin
aku da trguris hatinya scre halus...

' MAAF YE'

p/s : ingt seng ke aku nk mintk maaf kt org..!!!..=p